Well here we are again getting ready to celebrate yet another birthday without you it is so hard to believe you are almost 4 years old but as time passes I miss you so much more watching your brothers grow and wondering how you would be interacting with them would you guys be fighting all the time like they do I just wonder everday what would have been and then I realize if I live like than you are less a part of our lives than I want so I have to bring myself back and thank god that I have your spirit in my life at every moment I make sure that your little brothers know all about you and how you have touched so many lives without even drawing a breath on this earth always know Mommy loves you with every ounce of my being and one day soon I will hold you in my arms again